Moving Ahead..

Dear All,

Spending days and days , alhamdulillah... mulan after work has finalised the new layout.. eventhough it's not what I really want.. tapi okaylah kan...

Moga sempena Tahun Baru , layout Baru dan mulan after work pun bersemangat baru..

Looking back the whole year 2011, masyaAllah, giler sikit betul entry, walhal it was the busiest day most of the time, yes sampai takde masa nak update.. so many things happen.. and I really mean it..

Tuhan selalu menguji kita.. kadang2 kita selalu nampak yg indah2 aja.. yg baru2 sahaja.. sampai kita lupakan apa yg kita ada.. Dan selalunya laluan yang baru tu senantiasa nampak cantik , indah .. semuanya baik2 saja..

Kadang2 kita lupa, alpa.. hilang pertimbangan.. But Alhamdulillah, God is Great...

Allah maha adil, pemurah dan He always knows the best..

At times kita tahu thats not the right thing kan, but kita degil.. ikut hati dan perasaan.. At the end of the day , we realised the truth..

Trying to move on.. leaving all the things behind it's not an easy things to do..

Moving ahead , tanpa berpaling ke belakang is the best things to do.. People said , the best way to forget things is by thinking all the negative things.. the worst memories etc.. yeah , I guess that's absolutely right...

It seems that every road has an end.. But sometimes the end of the road is just another new beginning.. Getting myself ready to walk straight and never look back..

InsyaAllah...

A Friday to Remember...

So many changes in life , personal or even my work life made me a lil bit ignoring the blog.. how could I did such things... There's so many pending drafts & stuffs ..

But this morning.. While was on my way back home from paying all e bills in Puchong , it was like a wake up call listening to a song by Sheila Majid #DiDlm Emosi Ini not sure though which radio station was that.. but the song really blew me away.. and made me to write this..

#DiDalam Emosi Ini was my all time fav from Sheila M ! It was from the best Malay Album Ever #Emosi released somewhere in 1987-88 I guess.. that was 24 years ago..

And that was also the beginning of my teen life.. I was 16 in 1987.. and e beginning of the journey of all the upside down of my life.. Feel like crying when I think of those days.. but at times I can't believe that I'm still here .. in this world enjoying my life to the max..

I was confused , mixed up in life and it doesn't stop there.. I was a very " keep to myself my own secret " person.. will never shared it with anybody .. even BFF or all my beloved sisters.. and yes it remains until today..

I believed that you need to have a world of ur own and it just dedicated to you..

Named it from Ipoh then I further my studies in Science in Kuantan.. back to Ipoh for a year working and continue my Law studies in Shah Alam.. before I ended up working in a totally different industry .. that is Retail until today..

And looking back at my younger years, trust me if I would like to tell you the whole stories.. can't even finished it in a 24 episode of Sinetron.. It was such a long story... but yet I'm a strong person.. I knew that.. I'm a stubborn blonde.. a named given to a good friend once ..

Love , to be loved , lost in love was here & there.. Being with the wrong persons.. Ran away from the right persons.. Being so in loved , Ran away from loved .. everything was there.. And the people I've been with ? You will be suprised...

Even when I told not even half of the real story to my hubby he was like.. " Ok .. I've lost count on ur ex boyfriends duh.. how many & who & why you didn't ended up with them.. " and we will laughed away with it..

Love, Personal & even working life were always a drama , name it a good one or a tragic one.. I've been there.. & what made me really felt touch by the song today.. that I've survived all that.. Bring it on and I'm sure I'll get through with it..

For e last 1 month the emotions were at times seems to be mixed & confused too..

And I was trying my best not to think of it.. or at times even to face it.. that's my weaknesses.. running from a problem that ended up I'll face a new one..

Be strong , because strong people can't be defeated..

I'll always believe in that.. Always..

But at times strong people got feelings too.. and strong people got hurt too...

To all of you out there who've been part of my life all these years.. and

To all of you out there that once loved & care for me & accept me as what I am..

Thanks for all the memories.. you know who u are..

To my beloved husband.. who have always been there the moment I met him..

I owed you my whole life & I dedicated it to you...

11 days to go to venture into a whole new era .. And I guess I'm ready ..

Alhamdulillah...

#DiDalaam Emosi Ini

I'm Back Again...

tak taulah dah berapa kali entry I'm back ni keluar rasanya...

anyway punya lah lama x upload sampaikan nasib baik ada lagi blog tu...

Mana tau, dah hilang ke.. dahlah pakai blogspot.com lagi...

Apapun, I hope I can be back for real and for good.. as lately so many good, great & wonderful things is happening around & towards me..

Alhamdulillah.. kdg2 like I always said.. God works in his own mysterious ways...

Moga semuanya sentiasa yg baik baik saja.. InsyaAllah..

Okay let's start blogging back !

Back to Reality

Back to Life , Back to Reality..

yes, I have to face it.. I have to ended those fairy tales .. somehow .. someway...Dah few times , I thought things was over.. I can get through my life without it.. but still I ended up dreaminng and lost in nowhere.. seriously nowhere...

I don't wanna talk about it.. trying my best to heal the wound.. trying my best to be as strong as I could.. even though I ended up .. nowhere day & night..

Reminder to me : God always works in his own way.. face it.. accept it.. He knows.. the best for me..

I must stop sleeping.. wake up.. wake up to face the reality.. no matter how bad, how hard..

What's Up

What's up & what's wrong ??

Trying my best to find the answer... Mulan After Work : my one & only blog was abandoned for months..

I have not been tweeting lately .. and not only that, not been following twitter that frequent..

Not following some of the TV Programme including the last season of AF , eventho AF was my not to miss programme every year..

My last run was the one I did in Kuala Kangsar my hometown last months.. and no more even a single training after that..

My last ride was 2 months ago.. and its only a short one... the bike must be bored to death resting in the room..

My passion towards photography was going to the drainage too..

What happened to me?? What's wrong with me..

So many entries half finished in e draft & I'm not going to finished it I guess..

I'm not sure what's happening.. Or I knew what's happening but I'm just ignoring it..

Yeah.. the 2 pics posted was my latest.. look at the hair.. I don't even have the time to get it cut !

What is keeping me that busy ?

I'm not so sure...

Pause..

Life seems stop for a while lately...

So many changes , uncertainty happening in our life lately .. that we only get the real clear pictures last week...

But never at any moments that anybody knows the real thing, the real stories.. and its better to just let it remain as it is..

Some changes might happen tomorrow.. and life will never be the same again..

Sad & sigh.. but life must go on..

God Works .

A Picture Paints a Thousand Words... These 2 pictures was among my favourites, were taken in Cameron Higlands few months ago..

Browsing thru old pictures does at times deviates me away from things that was bothering my mind...

My status on Facebook last Thursday was a bit down.. not a bit.. but I was really down.. Infact it was updated as soon as I got the news...

" God works in his own mysterious ways, I wish I knew the answer ;( "

I was really sad at that moment... it might be a small matter to certain people , or I was too carried away , too emotional , but I'm just human..that at times I cant hide the feelings.. can't run away from being very sad.. and thus broke into tears... yes, I broke in tears late nite when I was alone in the office ..

I was tought to be a strong person.. all my life I hold on to " Be Strong Because Strong People Cannot Be Defeated.. " but this time I failed.. I'm lost.. I'm speechless..

The issue of love, life & work is just a simple thing towards anybody..

I even reply thru my twitter , " my life is at times weird , no one will understand me." and no one will know what deep inside my heart .. or even my true my feelings .. cos at times, there's a dark side in my heart that I prefer to keep it to myslf.." will never ever let it go as no one will ever understand it.. never .

Yes, God Works in his own Mysterious Ways, I guess He knows what's the best for me..

A beautiful all time my favourite .

Do You Know Where Youre Going To?

Life is short...

When everybody were talking about MJ's ceremony , funeral etc...

My company received sad news early morning yesterday..

I was @ Subang Jaya for a Meeting, when the Boss sadly informed the news.

Mr AMR , one of our Director frm one outlet, met with a tragic accident , plus everybody in the car ( 4 of them in 1 car ), are the Commitee Team.. it's part of the team.. they were the strong people from the company..

Mr AMR was in critical condi yeaterday.. he was such a nice guy...I met him 2 days ago during the Red Meeting..

Later in the afternoon, we got the worst news for the day.. one of the guys Mr Kerry the Division Manager , passed away.. it was really the news that we would not want to hear..

The 3 of them was still warded at this hour.. Miss Tim the Boss secretary has been trasferred to KL, while Mr AMR was still in Jerantut...

Lets pray for them & the family..